Tea, anyone?

There is a strange and rather unhelpful pattern to my sobriety journey. The better I’m doing and the more confident I become as a soberista, the more likely I am to stop doing all the things that I need to do to avoid drinking. It inevitably starts with thoughts like: “I’ll miss Thursday’s meeting because […]

10 Minutes

I have ten minutes. Ten minutes to articulate what I have struggled all my life to understand. Eight minutes now, it must have taken longer than I thought to open this word document and select the font that makes me most comfortable. Seven. I do not know what it is that I am meant to […]

Another day, another lesson.

Something has happened this week to make me feel sad, reflective and fearful. There is nothing that I can do to change it, whatever it might be – events and their outcomes are totally out of my control and they will inevitably bring big changes to my life. Faced with this my initial reaction was […]

Hello fear, where have you been?

It’s Tuesday and this is the one day of the week when I am at home alone*. There are endless jobs to be done, so there is very little reason to be idle, but idle is my default mode; energy-saving is my specialty. So when I am home alone it is easy for me to […]

Letter to my 16 year-old self.

For Christmas I received a wonderful book titled Letter To My Younger Self, a compilation of interviews with various celebrities, where they consider what they would tell their 16 year old selves about what life holds for them. A Twitter pal and I wondered together what we would write to our 16-year-old counterparts if we […]

An Alcoholic: Who me?

Hi. I’m Matt, I’m an alcoholic. I have been saying those words regularly now for the past four months. Whilst on holiday during the Easter break I finally admitted to another person that I was not able to control my drinking; I recognised previously damaging behaviours becoming more and more prevalent and the fantasy that […]

Can I control my drinking?

The other day I responded to a Twitter post from someone sober who was thinking about picking up again, but only drinking once-a-week and just 2-4 drinks. Their query; is this achievable? My response was simple: “In my opinion only people who can’t do this ask that question.” I say that because for the last […]